It’s been several weeks since they parted ways with the adventurers but Henshaw can still feel the influence that the Bard; Rifkin and the others had on him. Seeking out Barbella one evening, he asks his friend’s help in understanding his recent confusion.
“Are we defined by our actions or our impulses? Do you think we are born with our natures set and that they’re beyond our control?”
Barbella is a clever man but not so taken to angst-ridden introspection as his friend.
“You’re asking ‘if you were born evil; if it was your fate like, and you ‘ad no control over it, would you actually be evil or just an innocent puppet of the gods and demons what made you’?”
Henshaw tugs at his blond thatch.
“I guess so. The Human gladiator; Fortu was a lot like us. Driven by his more beastial urges, but he seemed to be the master of them… more often than not. Could we not decide to do the ‘right thing’ as easily as taking the easier, more self-gratifying… more profitable path?”
Barbella scowls.
“I don’t like your intellectual flights of fancy. If our actions are set according to predetermined nature and the gods, then they cannot be evil. I’m just a man who enjoys killing, but I didn’t choose my preferences, so surely, rationally, I shouldn’t be punished for them?”
The newly promoted Captain Henshaw breathes heavily.
“Imagine if Doberman chanced upon a buxom servant girl, wedged front half in and plump bottom half out of a low, ground floor window. She can’t get no traction with her legs and her arms are too puny to push or pull herself free. She’s completely trapped and calling out for help but there’s no one around but ‘im. We both know what he’d do, but is it right just because ‘it’s his nature’?”
Sergeant Barbella grins at the thought, a couple of his gold teeth flashing briefly in the remains of the daylight.
“Nice image but yeah. Doberman would be just acting on his base animalistic instincts. He’s too dumb to consider the victim. He’d just see it as an opportunity too temptin’ to pass up.”
Henshaw straightens up in his chair.
“See, that’s exactly the problem. You and I are smart enough to empathise and understand the consequences of our actions against that poor, beautiful, fictitious girl. A dangerous imbecile like Doberman must be controlled and held to account… held in check by men like us.”
Barbella stops grinning.
“You’ve always been more concerned with rules and laws than me but I’ll always be your friend. We’ve both done bad things in our lives, terrible things, but it’s always been about surviving in this brutal, dog-eat-dog world. I don’t share in your ‘crisis of faith’ though. I’ve done what I’ve done to get by and I’m not sorry. Killing’s what I’m good at and I won’t apologise for it.”
Henshaw places a hand on the back of Barbella’s neck and pulls him forward until their foreheads are pressing together.
“Doberman’s just a dumb brute but, you and I, we’re not just products of our pasts. We’re clever enough to see what we’ve done, what we do, is wrong. Surely, we can change… If we wanted to? Become better men?”